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May 18 2008

Is 3am Really The Best Time To Think About Religion?

I’ve thought quite a lot about god, religion, and the interplay between the two recently after a two-year long break.  I co-produced a documentary about religion a few years ago.  I’ve mentioned it here before in passing, but never explicitly, because I have so many conflicting opinions.  The IMDB profile for it is here.  I got involved because I had worked previously with the director and thought it would be an interesting project, not because I advocate for the views expressed in the documentary.  

I learned a whole lot about a lot of things (few of which have anything to do with religion) while making the film, so overall it was a great experience, but I have trouble talking about it now, since it is so controversial and militant in its stance.  I don’t feel that way anymore (if I ever did) and I don’t want to offend my religious friends, because I respect their views and value their perspective.

There’s a girl on tumblr who I follow who seems very sweet and genuine, and for whom God is very much a real presence in her life.  I think that’s lovely, actually, but I could never go back to believing again.  I’ve devoted too much time to rational thought and critical thinking and the truth is, I don’t believe in God.  I just don’t.  

And while I certainly don’t miss organized religion, I miss having faith in something other than this world.  I’m envious of those who embrace some form (any form) of spirituality.  Not because I want comfort or something/someone to fall back on and certainly not because I need a moral compass (if your faith is the sole basis of your sense of morality-what does that say about you, really?), but because by eliminating the sense of something beyond what I can see, test, and empirically ”know,” I’m worried that I’m stifling my creativity.  

I posted about this first a few weeks ago here, in response to Ryan Adams, but then took it down.  I thought it was dumb when I read it back later, and maybe it is, I don’t know, I have no perspective when it comes to my own writing.  I’m reposting it again, though.

I seriously need to finish this paper.  It’s starting to have seriously negative effects on my mental health.

Oh, and Tami, what do you think about God? 

melanyouth:

After coming across Bucky’s quote, I thought I’d look up what some other people have said about the existence of God. I don’t really have any opinions on what these three guys have to say, but I do think it is an interesting question to ask of anyone.
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