May 09 2008
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This entire post is beautiful, and a near perfect reflection of some of the things currently occupying my mind.
i find myself reflecting far too hard on life lately, reflecting on how i maybe 27 but drug n mental addictions leave me at 17, maybe a little older. i am far behind most. i am enjoying this, maybe too much. i have many faults, many failures. all of which i would gladly repeat, maybe hurry but truly love to repeat. this blogging, this opening journaling, mind to mind tunnel is just a perfect reflecting of oneness with others. not one of us is feeling an emotion that is totally unique. possibly we are reflecting it in an individual manner, we are so far from alone. thankfully this is such a newborn thought. we feel refreshed, re-surged. i miss those who i can no longer follow. tis not mine to question on the reason why some gorgeous purging of words must cease to be, i must only be left with the scraps of expansion. follow the explosions, toss yourself in the mix. oh, but never erase. never never let go of the depths that make us vulnerable and open individuals. never not open up. even if it becomes far far more personal then you can handle. that is when you grow. that is when you question those things that make you far more content with the thing you seemingly cannot ever handle. emotional, personal spiritual growth is far more darling, make far more of a ripple then changing your music, your clothes, your manners. far bless you all for reading, indulging in voyeuristic manners that open spaces in mind of lethargy. if i could not open, if i could not share. i would do so much of death, so much of falling apart i would forget my own name. if you cannot share the utterly profound importance of your intellectual mind, is that not more impactful then physical death??